ReBoot. Defragging a life

Everything is so fragile.

There is so much pain and conflict, so much pain... You keep waiting for the dust to settle and then you realize, this is it: the dust is your life going on.

If happy comes along, that weird unbearable delight that's actually happy, I think you have to grab it while you can.

You take what you can get, cause it's here, and then...

gone

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And with that, everything just makes so much more sense. ..

hello again.

It's been almost exactly half a year on my self imposed removal from the internet. Why, you may ask. Simple: to live life. To become who I wish to be without someone else dictating the limitations. For me to be happy without the need of outside life support. A good friend told me, before you can find happiness in anything, you have to be happy within yourself. Earlier, she wrestled an overflowing toilet for 2 hours, because she didn't realize there was a shut off valve. So from the mouth of naivety comes pearls of wisdom, too special to be just merely chance.

There have been so much I was afraid of in life. And I was so surprised on what most of it was: failure. As simple as that! I didn't want to try anything for fear of failing. It seems so much easier to never know that pain, then to revel in the chance you might be right.

To be honest, I also thought I had no more to say...

And, it hit me one day; Why not? Suck down the fear, and just do it (don't sue me Nike...). I spend so much time with the perception of what can go wrong, nothing of course will ever go right! So, I just...do things now.

One of the big ones, I'm dating and meeting people. MY own people! Not "friends" from other friends, but people who choose to talk to me. And, damn, that was a big nut to crack! I am a mass of eccentricities, and waffles.

I'll go in everything in more deeper details later. But, I wanted to start this again, and shitcakes! Here's how it starts! I also find that life gives us so much each day to write about, and I'm not done yet, afterall

And that quote above that was so moving? It was from an X-Men comic book. Don't scoff! You liked it too! Don't be an ass and fight the fact that comics can be written well! Embrace it!
And we'll get along just grand.

See you soon, space cowboy...